so i remembered my dream last night thanks to tony..

So I am in this old house, one i have never been in before.

Nanny and Dee Dee were they dead. They had their own rooms, and I was in the living room of this house Dee Dee was dead but haunting, and nanny was pissed I had a party. Micheal Cera was there, and me and my friends and his co-actors were playing the movie while it played and they did the scene, and micheal cera and his co actor simulated oral sex on a chick which was so funny i think i laughed while dreaming, but then nanny got mad, and norma jean got mad and we threw fire crackers at her house and punched her dog, but we took her cats, as our own but i dont think she had cats, just a mean dog.

Why Conan is awesome:

his comedy is smart. and thought out, and 30 somethings who watch TV get it.
He isnt degrading people for laughs--like Leno does. Come and film me at 3 in the morning and the 8 years i went to school will be out the window.

Leno is a perv. read previous posts
Dave is a perv. google it.

two words: no wait 5: triumph the insult comic dog---to the star wars geek whos pregnant: thats the last time he will ever see female genetalia

financial plan

Ok.

So first. I am gonna find a way to make some extra money. And I am going to look at my last 2 months of expenditures and really follow a budget.

Second, instead of rehabbing my loan, I am going to consolidate both loans.

There will be some negative reports on my credit by not rehabbing it but I refuse to work with these leeches of debt collectors, what they do should be illegal and 18 percent interest for a year is bullshit. Perhaps I could get the bad marks cleaned off with a letter writing campaign. I am gonna pay down my smaller debts. Starting with UMKC, my capital one card, Wal-mart card. and that will cover that. hopefully I can defer the student loan consolidation for 6 months and then after my small debt, I can work on the loan debt.

can I pay off 40 grand in 3-4 years? I dunno....

This is my plan.

mom being tortured

facebook chat

its sad that if you are a democrat in a 2 party system, the republicans try to snuff you out and label you as communist. socialist and fascist, but the whole fucking point is democracy CANNOT just be one party. that is WAY more fascist. and to dismiss EVERYONE with a different view is wrong. and they never want to debate, they want to scream and drown out until no one else can be heard
sorry i went on that rant...

am i insane if my dreams are?

i have had the kookiest dreams lately, but what i remember about mine last night:

a. I was smoking a carrot like a cigar, like Bugs Bunny, only it was on fire.

b. i was at a lake with ducks, someone cut all of the ducks feet off, so people were giving ducks fake feet that were sort of like rubber boots shaped like duck feet that the ducks just stepped into with the stems of their cut off feet.

What the hell does this mean???

the laziest blogger ever. that's me.

I have really let my blog sit stupid for a while. So I have some thoughts about things, and I am contemplating some work issues. Not necessarily with my job, but my thoughts about my skills.

First. I will come out and say it. I HATE the crap I designed for Live in the Crossroads this year. It turned in to this regal mess. It's not my style. It's cluttered, weak concept, mashed together, no negative space or place for the eye to rest, the elements are competing, the color is off, and the pictures I had to work with were lame and not high res.

And somehow all of this escaped. and the end result was Whatever.

So, I feel its too late to do anything but ride this out and learn or try to figure out what I can do before next year's concerts if I can make it that long.

Second. I am feeling a little bit hacky. Like everything I do lacks this finished quality. Like things I do are maybe a little lame-brained. I don't know if its because I lack a certain knowledge, but I suspect it does have something to do with the type of work I do. I feel the need to be around other designers, to work with other designers. I feel like the quality expected from me, is a little below the real standard that I want to be set to. Anyways, I feel like I don't get to design enough.

On these two notes, I have been reading some articles on aiga.org about being an in-house designer. So far, all I am getting out of reading them is saying 'Yup. That's me. Yup. I hear that.' but I haven't been inspired with an idea to change my attitude yet. Here are a few quotes.

"In my consulting experience I know this for a fact. No matter why they call seeking help, the word “respect” always seems to creep into the conversation. In-house designers continually express concern about why their opinions are not valued, why they are given very little time to get work done, why the plum jobs get sent to outside boutique shops and why there seems to be little appreciation for what they do."

On the downside of being an 'innie'

"2. You have to report to a person who doesnt know much about design - you have to let your work be judges by someone who knows less about your subject than you do."

Enough of that. I plan to take a step back on my 5 whole days off, enjoy the weather, and come back feeling a little more refreshed with a clear idea of where I need to go over the next year.  

I think I am also feeling a little down, because I found out this morning, that indeed, I HAVE TO WORK WITH COMIC SANS!!!!! It is my worst nightmare.

Ok, so I stumbled across a few things that I found kinda cool. 

http://www.kansascouture.com/

Hey look! People in Kansas with personal style. This inspires me to get our closet/style business going, but seriously it seems like so much work!

http://WWW.HEIMSTONE.COM

This is a totally awesome website. Love it. 

And thats about it. 

birfday

they sell this at urban outfitters....

yet another use for balsa wood and paperclips

not since graphics 2 have a found a good use for this combo! worked out pretty good. now if only i would have used rub on helvetica for the identifiers!

what i want for my birfday

http://www.spacenk.com/product/shop+by+brand/lipstick+queen/makeup/medieval.do
http://kansascity.craigslist.org/ctd/1154158630.html
http://www.jewelryexpert.com/catalog/graphics/Antique-Diamond-Ring-1.gif
http://www.unlimitedperfumes.com/product_info.php?products_id=813&r=56